Here we go again

So my winter break is coming to an end.  I go back to school tomorrow and frankly, I don't want to.  My first semester back I was excited and nervous all at the same time.  But, now, going into the second semester, I am just dreading it.  Maybe because it is not new anymore.  Maybe because I had a lot going on during the break.  Or, maybe because I really never have liked school.  I just have to get through the next five months to be done with it.  After that hopefully someone will want to hire me.
The new me is not going very well so far.  I have not looked at that sparkpeople website since I signed up honestly.  I need some kind of motivation, someone to tell me to get off my ass and go for a walk.  Or run up and down the stairs until my legs hurt.  There never seems to be enough time in the day though.  Between making meals, cleaning the meals, playing with the kids, driving to school, picking up from school, going to gymnastics, going to basketball, doing my school work, helping with the kids school work, going to doctor appointments (too many of those recently) I don't seem to have time for ME.  Oh well maybe next year!

I had to send a letter to Joe's school explaining the condition.  I have noticed lately that people DO stare at him and it is a lot of adults.  But then they smile at him.  I don't know if they don't know what else to do or what.  Recently at a family party a relative asked me if her kids could hurt him.  She wasn't concerned about her kids catching something.  She was concerned about HIM, maybe that is why people are smiling at him.  Or he is just that cute and handsome that you can't help but smile at him.  And since that letter went out some mom's have asked me if he is ok and does it hurt him.  My answer is always the same, no it doesn't hurt him, he doesn't know it is there.

New Year, New Beginnings

This blog of mine has kind of turned courses.  It started out me talking about being a "student mom" but it seems it is just now well about me in general.  I had to get stuff off my chest about Joe.  As for Joe right now, he is doing great.  We did have to send a letter home at his school explaining what was going on.  We just told people it is not contagious and it does not hurt him, I know I have already said that on here in previous posts but I wanted to reiterate it.  Sean is wanting to do the talent show at school this year, he couldn't do it last year.  He has also started talking about St. Baldricks already too, and that won't happen for a couple months.  Back to me now, haha.
So now, in the new year, I am changing courses again.  I will still be writing about school and the people and things I encounter.  But I am going to focus on me, reason being I haven't actually focused on me as a person in a long time.  I have focused on being a mom, a wife, a mortgage professional, a babysitter and whatever else I have come across in the past ten years.  I absolutely LOVE being a mom and a wife but this year I am going to focus on loving me too.  I have joined this website called sparkpeople.  I am hoping it can direct me to be healthier and stronger (physically and mentally).  I want to go on vacation next summer (after winning the lottery of course) and wear the bathing suit I have been so afraid of for the last decade.  I know that is a lot to hope for but you have to set a goal somehow right?
Have a great weekend everyone.
P.S.  It is the weekend so this will all start on Monday, lol.

I did it!!!

I passed Medical Terminology.  Phew.  That was a huge weight being lifted when I saw that.  I am so so so happy I am done.  Although I did like to listen to the instructors story.  It was like adult story time.  Now I just have to make it through next semester, which isn't any medical classes but more administrative to the medical field.  Of course I am nervous about next semester though because I am taking more hours.  But, two of the classes are just one credit hour and they are only 5 or 8 weeks long and they aren't even at the same time, so I guess I have a pretty nice school schedule.  If anyone knows anyone doctor offices or hospitals hiring around May of 2012 please let me know, lol.  Seriously though, I need a job as soon as I am done.  If not sooner, eek.

In regards to my last post about my son Joe, I guess I didn't have to be so blunt about it.  But there are still some people who are staring.  I have come to notice though that it is not the kids who stare, it is the parents.  We teach our kids to be polite and not stare at people whom we see as "different" so I just think the parents should also practice what they preach.

On to a happier subject, Christmas is only four days away, is everyone ready?  I still have some wrapping to do but that is it!  I am definitely ready to kick back and just enjoy the holidays with my family.  I have two boys of my own and five nieces around me, I absolutely love seeing the excitement and joy on their faces this time of year.
I do not think I will not write again before Christmas (nor do I know if anyone actually reads this) so I will say Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah now.  I truly hope you enjoy your time away from work and spend it with ones you love.

Hello friends

It's been a while since I last wrote.  I have been a little bit busy and down in the dumps.  SO I did have a mid term, I didn't do fantastic nor did I do horrible.  There was however a drop out I think.  Star is gone.  Yes, the young juice box drinking Star has not come to class in quite some time.  The class has actually seemed to shrink in the past couple months.  I did finally get my grade for keyboarding too, I know everyone was anxious on that one.
Since I am writing I am going to tell the story of my son and ask everyone who reads this to do me a favor.  First, the story.  Joe is four years old.  Last January he had an accident and broke his femur, that made for a really tough few months, and is still coping with the end result of that injury.  Most recently though he was diagnosed with en coup de sabre.  It is a form of morphea.  It is an immune deficiency disorder where your skin hardens and with en coup de sabre it can make an indentation in your skin and bone structure.  En coup de sabre is on your forehead.  Joe's starts on his forehead and goes up into his hair line.  We are hoping we have caught Joe's early enough that the indenting does not happen.  Right now he has a bright red mark that starts right between his eyes to the middle of his skull.  We are treating it with cream.  I keep telling myself that this is NOT life threatening, it is life altering.
Here is the favor I want to ask all of you.  You may be a mother, father, grandparent, sister, brother, aunt, uncle or teacher.  I am asking that everyone talk to your children about treating others with kindness and respect no matter what is on their face.  Yes, my Joe has a slight limp and a mark on his face and head but,  he is only four years and shouldn't have people staring at him when shopping or going to school.  He is still my sweet, kind, adorable and loveable little boy.  His physical appearance may have changed for now, hopefully it will go back and not leave any scarring, but his personality has not changed and I would like to keep it that way.
I truly hope everyone had a nice  Thanksgiving.  Have a wonderful holiday season.
P.S.  Sorry to any family members who are reading this instead of being told about it.  It has been a rough week.

Mid Term

I had my Medical Terminology mid term last Thursday.  I don't have that class again until this Thursday, how cruel is that?  I have to wait a whole week to get my grade.  Ugh!!  I actually feel better about the mid term than I did any other test.  I hope  I didn't just jinx myself.  I STILL have not gotten my keyboarding final grade.  What is with this place and not giving out grades?  I  have sent the instructor two emails, she's probably just trying to piss me off now.  I don't know what else to do though.  It's been almost a month!
I have been applying for jobs, again, I am always applying for jobs.  But as usual no one wants to hire me.  It sucks!
I am enjoying spending time with my kids though.  Even though the little one likes to color the cat.  Isn't that awesome?  Lol.  This is a really boring entry, sorry about that.

What do you prefer?

I have been wondering the past few days, what do people like to  hear about it?  Do they like the musings and silly things that I say or do they prefer to hear about what has brought me to where I am?  Because that is not a silly thing, it is a hard lesson learned.
We had it good a few years back.  I had a full time job, my husband owned a business.  We were able to buy a house and a new van within a month of each other.  I had worked for almost eight years for one company, a mortgage lender.  I had a couple files with this guy who was a broker and he talked  me into interviewing with him for a job.  It was a mile from where I was living, didn't pay as much, had benefits.  He told me in the interview that he wasn't going to hire me if he knew he was going to have lay me off in six months.  He was right, it was four months.  So we had a new house, a new car, a kindergartner and a nine month old baby.  If I had stayed with that company I left, I would have gotten laid off from there too but not for another year and I could have collected a severance package.
I worked at a gym for a while in their kids room, it was nice.  I got to bring my kids to work with me.  Then one day my boss told me I could no longer bring my kids, the cost of day care would have cost more than what they paid me.  So I quit that job.  My husband sold the business because it wasn't working out as we had hoped.  I have not been able to find a job since the gym.  I have applied many places but no one wants to hire me.  I have applied for countless jobs and have had one interview.  This is why I have gone back to school so that someone will hire me.
That van I talked about, it is gone.  We had to sell it.  For some reason this makes me upset still.  We sold it a couple months ago.  It is not the car that makes me upset (ok maybe a little, I loved that van), it is mostly the fact that it had to be done.  And why it had to be done.  And also the fact that there are some people out there who are constantly harassing me, saying I am the lazy one who won't get a job.  You don't know the whole story and maybe you do.  Either way, I don't need your criticism.
I have good kids, a good husband, a good family all together.  I may not have the material things anymore but I am thankful to have the support I have.
So hopefully next time I write, it will be a little more upbeat and amusing.
And now, I need to see if my final grade has been posted for keyboarding, I've been biting my nails for days on that one.

Female Reproductive System

Well, that grabbed your attention didn't it??  That's the chapter we started today.  And with a room full of women you would  think the giggles would be kept to a minimum?  Nope.  I wonder what they are going to do when we get to the male reproductive system.  There is this girl behind me and I think I have written about her about her before, but can't remember what I named her!  Maybe blondie, anyways, the instructor is going through things and I all hear behind me is "oh gross"  "oh my god, that would suck" and "oh I wonder if that hurts."  Girlfriend, go talk to someone who gave birth and they will let you know!  And the instructor was shocked that someone said they used cabbage leaves, ya know, for when you are not breast feeding baby.  She was hysterical about it, she couldn't couldn't get over it.  Sorry if I am grossing anyone out here.

Today was my last keyboarding class.  Thank the good Lord for that.  How many people are going back to see how many typing errors I have in here?  Haha.  I don't know how much longer I could have taken that class.  And having someone stand over your shoulder and watch you type is not my thing (take note hubby).  There was an actual multiple choice test in keyboarding today.  Here is a sample: What key do you push to make all the letters capital?  a.) shift b.) num lock c.) Control d.) CAPS lock or e.) none of the above.  And there were true or false questions too, like, you are supposed hunch over and put your head on the desk when typing.  True (T) or False (F).  Once again, I am glad that class is done.  I wish they would come out with next semesters schedule already.  I want to figure out a schedule so I can get a job too.  Or get a job and work my school schedule around that, which is the most likely thing to happen at this point.
And anyone who reads this, please keep your fingers crossed that I find some kind of job.
Peace.  HAHA