Here we go again

So my winter break is coming to an end.  I go back to school tomorrow and frankly, I don't want to.  My first semester back I was excited and nervous all at the same time.  But, now, going into the second semester, I am just dreading it.  Maybe because it is not new anymore.  Maybe because I had a lot going on during the break.  Or, maybe because I really never have liked school.  I just have to get through the next five months to be done with it.  After that hopefully someone will want to hire me.
The new me is not going very well so far.  I have not looked at that sparkpeople website since I signed up honestly.  I need some kind of motivation, someone to tell me to get off my ass and go for a walk.  Or run up and down the stairs until my legs hurt.  There never seems to be enough time in the day though.  Between making meals, cleaning the meals, playing with the kids, driving to school, picking up from school, going to gymnastics, going to basketball, doing my school work, helping with the kids school work, going to doctor appointments (too many of those recently) I don't seem to have time for ME.  Oh well maybe next year!

I had to send a letter to Joe's school explaining the condition.  I have noticed lately that people DO stare at him and it is a lot of adults.  But then they smile at him.  I don't know if they don't know what else to do or what.  Recently at a family party a relative asked me if her kids could hurt him.  She wasn't concerned about her kids catching something.  She was concerned about HIM, maybe that is why people are smiling at him.  Or he is just that cute and handsome that you can't help but smile at him.  And since that letter went out some mom's have asked me if he is ok and does it hurt him.  My answer is always the same, no it doesn't hurt him, he doesn't know it is there.

New Year, New Beginnings

This blog of mine has kind of turned courses.  It started out me talking about being a "student mom" but it seems it is just now well about me in general.  I had to get stuff off my chest about Joe.  As for Joe right now, he is doing great.  We did have to send a letter home at his school explaining what was going on.  We just told people it is not contagious and it does not hurt him, I know I have already said that on here in previous posts but I wanted to reiterate it.  Sean is wanting to do the talent show at school this year, he couldn't do it last year.  He has also started talking about St. Baldricks already too, and that won't happen for a couple months.  Back to me now, haha.
So now, in the new year, I am changing courses again.  I will still be writing about school and the people and things I encounter.  But I am going to focus on me, reason being I haven't actually focused on me as a person in a long time.  I have focused on being a mom, a wife, a mortgage professional, a babysitter and whatever else I have come across in the past ten years.  I absolutely LOVE being a mom and a wife but this year I am going to focus on loving me too.  I have joined this website called sparkpeople.  I am hoping it can direct me to be healthier and stronger (physically and mentally).  I want to go on vacation next summer (after winning the lottery of course) and wear the bathing suit I have been so afraid of for the last decade.  I know that is a lot to hope for but you have to set a goal somehow right?
Have a great weekend everyone.
P.S.  It is the weekend so this will all start on Monday, lol.